the breaking news breaks me

 the breaking news breaks me

reading the headline

  nurse shot by ICE

the drizzle cries outside of my

no no  noooooooooooo

for the cord on the news bundle

has been cut and will hang for ever

for my shame at being unable

has disabled me again

sorry to hear you are (very) unwell

 sorry to hear you are (very) unwell

where we dare not go 

but are heading 

into a headwind of words 

that are blown away 

like useless leaves 

that in actual fact

are the footstool

of springtime

oh dad

 oh dad

toast with melting butter

tea just so and then

the door closed the dark out

he went out somewhere 

where he always went with

my thought that is was nice toast

such nice toast by the fire

in his special chair a smile 

a mile wide wrapped around

that feeling of warmth 

for ever more

just ice

 just ice

the pin caused a stroke

there was no blood lost

although the northern lights

were bright red that night

and singing was heard 

far away

a Ouija board

spelled out ‘justice’

draft

 draft

a poem pops up

either side of sleep’s border

the sandman hits snooze

but the games afoot

‘complete’ becomes a word

upon which the moon smiles

smug with it’s silver ink 

it has edited it all before

over the mountains of its disregard

wide eyes smile

well i went like …

well i went like …

i am so small

the universe is so big

and yet

when i no longer exist

neither will the universe 

where do birds go to die

i rarely see a dead bird

to another universe perhaps

what if   what if

when i die i am born in another universe 

where i am writing a poem just like this

and you are reading it

just like this

no not reading it ‘just like this’

but just like this poem ❤️

because it could be my ticket to immortality 

i got the immorality bit sorted already

like 

a mirror reflected see

       a mirror reflected see

to wear your heart on your sleeve

        giving it all away

isn’t that what they say

well they certainly saw you

                      for

is it not their adumbrations  

       that delineate you

that arrest your outward flow

that send your stationary waves

               slap back

against your home quay walls

 for your ship has docked you

              once more