Monday 31 May 2021

mervin

 mervin


he was writing a book up until the day he died


let’s call him mervin 

it was about hitler’s hairdresser 

the mundane mirrored conversations

of a multiple murderer


i never saw a snippet of it

this professor who didn’t profess writing

but who was writing it slowly

over the year’s killing


i talked to him in the sea

on the seats of health

under a tanning sun

when the sun sparkled on the sea


how a shadow formed to

be minded of the falsehoods of a day

when before these days were dark days

within his sad smile when i asked for more


and now he has gone

suddenly the book closed 

smudging the last inkling

that it had gone to the grave with him


sometimes there is no point

around which a sadness can congeal

dry tears that are not yours to shed

but still your bitten lips whiten


mervin through the mirror gone

Sunday 30 May 2021

‘If only’

 ‘if only’


and the words come from the mind 

which is biased

the dark side has words in another language

whispered in another universe

the lament is still ‘if only’

i could speak the language of the supernova

if only the days were longer

and the thoughts shorter

the warp of space time less eloquent 

in ears that are vacated in the airlock

of not listening in a crowd of talking

in another language called mumbling 

the eyes less distant fixed

the pace less forwardly propelling

how flat yet speedy the river flows

the bridges fly

the punts levitate in the evening air

time clanged by clocks more aged than time

itself walking the quadrangles of lights

in conversation under a moon so resolute 

to call time on the day’s run

the doors be bolted and barred 

and all the time it seeps under the beams 

the mystery

this poetry thingy a me thing


this poetry thingy a me thing


this poetry thing why be called

these lines poetry or those a poem

what is the point in classification 

what is a poet and by whom called

it is written in an emotive tome of big longing 

to be a poem with a poet’s poetry but reader 

caveat emptor where your finger points 

it’s the emperor’s new clothes

it’s a all con  man o man

like in all walks of life some are better than others

at things and all things are just things

does a plumber sing water music 

or a decorator sing pictures at an exhibition

just a line put and a line read

an emotion received and perceived 

where it came from and where it is going

wrapped in self-importance or the reverse 

it does not bring into being what is not

as particles anti-particles annihilate

so the poetry thing is but a mirage of an oasis

in a desert of longing for an alternative level 

of existence or the metaphysics of proving worth

so don’t place anyone on a pedestal who cannot

dig a grave thought that naught is what you are

words the herons fishing for frogs

lines the ties of boats to shore

verses the blocks of a child’s castle

books of works the wasps to jam pots 

thing a me  thing a me  thing a me 

boo

 

why

 why


why don’t we all rise up

are we all fine

many of us are fine

many of us are not

fine 

mess we are in

a

Saturday 29 May 2021

a bard dream

 a bard dream


and there was i in my dream

going around the corner into

a dark alley of dark spaces and dark things

silent and unspeakable things

then they were suddenly gone

into nothing

a light slowly shone

i did look back

more than once

but it was always behind me

until there was i in my dream

Friday 28 May 2021

brick

 brick


                   child


boy’s own book

the broken window

help came and was called 


                 a brick


took me years before

i solved that conundrum 


now it’s humdrum

a throw away story


                   oh


i wish i was a boy again 

that conundrum is still working on me

Thursday 27 May 2021

if only i could

 if only i could


underground rivers

that break to the surface

        momentarily 

before diving underground

again

the saw is cutting 

hitting the knots of yesterday 

reverberations jar thought

welsh en english y welsh 

they would call it

but neither speaks the other

except in the issue of rivers 

for they are from the same earth 

words may come 

from minds that are biased

the dark side has words 

whispered in another language 

in another universe

the lament is still

  ‘if only’

i could speak the language

i could

you know you know i would

if only i could


Tuesday 25 May 2021

say they are yours

 say they are yours


ink does not flow

or pen nib scratching know

the ideas that i lay as notes

on my iPad from john o’groats

to the lands end of lines

with such beauty entwined

they fall from my mind

and if you are so inclined

say they are yours

go on say they are

for they are no longer mine 

we are

 we are


we

we are

we are at

      war

we are at war

war

war we are at

i have to tell you now

we are at war

      again

here we go again

happy as can be

then silence

      ence

war can mean 

silence 

      ence

war can be silent

where are we

now

we are at war

god help us

we 

who

are

at

war

Monday 24 May 2021

craft a poem?

 me?

craft a poem?

are you lazy?

or what?


you capitalise!

you punk, you hate it?


i’ll metre you half way.

i’ll be the cad over the fence.

the rhythm and blues.


time for my snooze.

here comes another poem.

atishoo atishoo

awful down.


Sunday 23 May 2021

the drying of a dream gone home


the drying of a dream gone home 


to pull myself along a squall

along a wall that shelters nowt

when trees bend to the west wind’s will

and grapple along with rain when out

the wind only speaks to the trees

listen 

you’ll get no reply whatever you ask

whatever it is 

it isn’t on the wind’s breath 

or the tip of the tongue of sunshine

fast becomes the going of shadows

across the cowed fields backwards 

unmoving creeps the eye that

although it has seen it all before

still falls for the same trick

the wheels that speed forward turning backward

the rotors that thrump thrump unmoved by speed

will the dust from a smoky thought ever settle

will the silk tablecloth never slip its timing

oh dear purple loved and unloved by each few

now that the muse’s devil dust is gone

sleep come preternaturally early 

and the book slams shut 

ink flying in the drying of a dream gone home

time & tide

time & tide


the tide rises higher

waters from another time

run in her valley

as the mountains heave

clouded 

pale blue eyes

unfocused 

between both infinities

life in the waist of time 

between the two sands

running in reverse

the unknowing

never will

arrive

Saturday 22 May 2021

scheduled senescence

 scheduled senescence 


like the latest smart phone

god offers us an extended warranty 

a dedicated helpline

our own personal assistant

a seat at the back

the freedom of servitude 

sign here 

a cross will do

a collector of words

 a collector of words


i am a collector of words

  so called plain words

  so called rare words

beautiful words that say ugly

ugly words that say beautiful 

they are in the etymology section

pinned in drawers marked


P lain

O rdinary

E xciting

M umbling 

S creaming


they sometimes twitch in the camphor

get up in the museum of night and walk around

end up in different drawers that squeak differently 


the children love opening and closing the drawers

eyes wide tongued lips clacking smacking 

adults feign that the word feign is vain

glorious in the 3D glasses never the same


me


i hunt the words that hide behind me

in the panto of life they scream

look out behind you

at midnight the glass shoe still half full


always is another word


the net of my mind has holes now

but repetition weaves repair remember

nursery rhymes are in bottom drawer

behind the drawers that are in the front 

of your mind where 

the chair rocks in the corner

where the spidered cabinets are

drawn in a vertical rosary for fingering

what the tine words of time had said

this word after that word before that word

all that needed to be said was said


and then

i tuck them up in bed

in the pm of thought

 in the pm of thought


watch my finger

keep watching my finger

now

put a cross there

just there 

where

my hair falls

in disarray 

every day

keep watching my finger

you will remember nothing

if you ever wake up

you will still remember nothing

watch my finger

Friday 21 May 2021

storm swimmer

storm swimmer 


 high wind

wild sea

   mountainous  waves

 black clouds

white sea 

   mountainous  thoughts

 heavy rain

brass sea

   mountainous  fear

 pebble roar

drawn sea

   mountainous  stance

 shard rocks

blood sea

   mountainous screech

 storm birds

riding the sea

   mountainous  speed

 upon leaving

the sea

   mountainous  achievement 

 sitting long

by the sea 

   mountainous  valour

 mountainous

sea

simply

o sing o life sing orioles

 o sing o life sing orioles


o sing o life sing orioles

in vacuous vacant vacuoles

that join with spirits so long gone

that bigger now to carry on

the smiles where smiles left off

to dry again the wet tears that fell

and spin the sunsets around 

and around we go again to tell

of times so profoundly young

STOP          there 

be still

not here against our will

the size of a sigh is still unknown

in the unfolding of hands that cling

the young people that we always were

and are still

deep down   deep down

deep down

swansea museum

 swansea museum


camphorated butterflies 

pinned in drawers under the stairs

the golden eagle’s entourage stuffed and branched

the welsh kitchen with my mother’s things

swansea china where i wanted to willow word

then the wary staircase 

to the mummy and the red lady

down balustraded stairs to

that huge room of huge old books 

leathered in a childhood’s wide eyes 

breath against the glass cases

the clunk of shoes on wooden floors

and those big doors beneath the pediment

that fell back upon a walk 

to wind street bridged and blowing 

down all of our yesterdays 


Thursday 20 May 2021

oh bird bach

 oh bird bach


yesterday 

on the coast path

song 

loud from a bird

i replied

he / she changed the tune

i replied

we duelled

above the sea’s song

unseen to me 

the bird shook

hands with me

i walked away

remembering 

that day

i ‘saw’ what is always

unseen

Tuesday 18 May 2021

noise

 noise


when my mind is gaping

open to seduction by poetic thoughts

any noise is like a stun grenade

rattling hail around a sun shower

breaking dishes best served with silver


             STOP

         THAT

               BLOODY

                      NOISE


listen to the illusive will o’ the wisp lisp

of voices beyond choices

extra-cranial in their introspection

the prolapse of a mind in depth defined

and all thought proscribed by thought


bleating

 bleating


flying the kite of your haematocrit 

the strings of my heart lengthen

with the days of your growing 

away from my

bleating

i i i

 i  i  i


all these poems  so full of i 


go


the back door is open do not slam IT


but there you go and me saying go


take your id and your ego

 

and ergo you are gone and


left the poem devoid of i i i


the petals of stone and iron unfold 


the lie of the land of this verse 


no more accursed with i it can fly 


and so it will




oh sally, sadly true

 oh sally, sadly true

wars

and the rumour of wars

always there in the news

every day i know it will be the same

tomorrow

this armour of a tank I wear thickens

as my eyes narrow to slits

then it exploded in my face

your poem

exploded tomorrow today 

terminus terminus

all change

Saturday 15 May 2021

reservoir dynamics

 reservoir dynamics


there are so many words i would NEVER use in a poem

so many clichés and so many shaped lines

couplets and permutations thereof 

so many rhymes and so many enjambments

tenses and alliterated personifications

so many lambent halcyon salad days

and all the poems that begin with i 

or she or me and

all of them going

et cetera et cetera et cetera 

such an uneconomical well to drill

that my reservoir of words has congealed

what was a flaming gusher has exploded

cloy are the tar sands of ubiquity