Sunday 31 October 2021

old to autumn

 old to autumn


slow in its long running 

this storm

this black and blue autumn

its anticyclones of leaves 

rising smokeless 

high along a squall’s running

blowing through the field’s hair

defoliated in the whipping of a silver birch


  gerry and the pacemakers on the radio

weeping the long shadows of a feeling

that we have all been here before 

the music of the leaves running 

in the wind’s pursuit


the tutu of the fig leaves dancing

sunshine upon the closing of eyes as

the day’s tenure slips through our fingers 

a time that was never destined to persist 

or to ever desist in the melancholy 

of a long walk home

Saturday 30 October 2021

waving not drowning

 waving not drowning


every time i see a photograph of a wave i want to dive under it

to surface in a spinning look back to a far shore

to swim in the uncertainty 

to question my sanity

or should that be salinity 


for humour is a raft

gasping a laugh and not a tremor

the sky a lift and not a sodden blanket

the rain an exhilarating sting

not the pressure of a day going wrong


striding 

push after push through the surf drag

drag drag dragging back in the undertow of leaving

of striding eye ward sand ward home ward

of a breath so big that the whole world waits

for my resurrection as the waters break



the drying sand drawn in seaweed reds and greens

and reds in eyes closed under a towelled sun’s standing 

the long look back at the question

was i there was i really in there in that maelstrom 

that rebirth never changes in exhilaration 


that painting of a wave 

there on the wall

barely captures the wave’s personality

but it hangs mine every time 

and every time i return to being alive 

if only just hanging on to the mane of the white horses

in the wild stallion that is my sea


Thursday 28 October 2021

my dear writer

 my dear writer


your words

through the mincer of my mind

take on a hidden meaning

so ~ if you would be so kind

as to tune your mincer

to phase it in line with mine

and then we will be leaning 

into the wind 

some words do evince sir

if you would be so kind 

Tuesday 26 October 2021

swimmingly

 swimmingly


a swimmer and her sea

that rare moment  oft repeated

that instant when ‘at one with’ is 

exactly what it says on the canvas

the clichéd flow of paint

into mixed with

the clichéd flow of tide

expressed in a laugh as wide and

as enchanting in its exuberance 

as to appear as unbelievable

as ecstasy is illusive

but there it is captured by the artist 

and swimmingly so 

they will splash

Monday 25 October 2021

leave it on the catch in case the cat

 leave it on the catch in case the cat

leave it on the catch in case the cat


leave it on the catch 

leave it on the catch 


leave it on the catch in case the cat

Sunday 24 October 2021

they said

 they said 

we need a man to do this

and so he did and this became a name 

a name like a wheel tapper

so he became a wheel tapper

until the day he died

he was a wheel tapper

they said

at the end of a day’s field

 at the end of a day’s field 


it is so lonely

at the end of a line

at the end of a stanza

at the end of a day’s field

the dust settling on an idea

that has had its day

tried its best 

but failed to leave a mark

it is so lonely

sitting there scribed

pencilled in 4B

smudged like a cInder’s tear 

forlorn is the thought

is the word that describes a thought

that has come to naught 

at the middle of a page 

at the end of a line

at the end of a stanza

at the end of a day’s field

that in reiteration says

nothing more than nothing was

at the end of a line

at the end of a stanza

at the end of a day’s field

repeating the fog horn forlorn

upon the high tide’s making

smashed and drifted spume

dried upon a parchment’s nothing

not even a breath stirs 

a mind numb 

a forlorn forlorn

an end ended

a beginning never started

a hiatus trussed in time

stopped


stop now! now!


at the end of a line

at the end of a stanza

at the end of a day’s soliloquy 


remember this

 remember this

we will never be ready

when the gas dies under the back burner

where the end is reducing


yes  there are spits on the tiles

as the bloody sauce thickens

the stirring more difficult 


damp tears condensing on the windows

of the wall’s cold closing

the is fire dying


remember this

the autumn lobelia

 the sun 

is licking 

     the autumn lobelia

bronze whitening 

a purple rinse 

  in a blue pot

on a black table

after rain

Friday 22 October 2021

a wet morning in october

 a wet morning in october 


eyes falling backwards into thoughts

of the big awake before the big sleep

screaming at the walls   you all

do you not see  do you not see

me

as you rush past

a funeral cortège passes

in the rain

my thoughts follow


nothing else to do

Wednesday 20 October 2021

yellow reign

 yellow reign


heavy yellow rain

shafts of light

from a wind sun

fast upon an autumn 

morning after

a storm black night

fig leaves cowering

a leaf on the window

running down

in the bluster

of the trees stirring

anxiously

light and dark

at war

   oh yes

a blue white sky run

falling under 

the dark spell

of hell october 

be gone with you

the summer has gone

you know it

i know it

let us settle for winter

the deep end of it

what do you say

shake hands on it

shake the trees

pile the leaves 

colour up a false warmth

in a blanket snooze

and be gone with you

Tuesday 19 October 2021

a poem written by twitter

 a poem written by twitter 


autumn in central park 

  rowing boats on a

  sunday afternoon


fog in the fields

  four photos from germany 

  the rails disappear 


children entering

  a brick built barn in devon 

  guess what the game was


a bee

  covered with grains of pollen

  tasting it


volcano

  not the swansea theatre 

  la palma lava


a woman

  sitting in an armchair 

  cutting a sunbeam


on the sea shore

  a dogs coffin 

  inlaid with brass


stone in water

  the ripples in space time

  this way and that


moons

  one above

  one below


the way we were

  photographs of yesteryear 

  and here we are


my cat

  so many are saying

  my cat


wheat

  growing on the space station

  a cerealisation 


a post

  followed by a reply

  followed by a friendship


it follows

  if you follow me

  i’ll follow you





a sigh emerges

 a sigh emerges


damn these clever words

i am burning them one by one

but there are so many

they clog the oil in the cogs

that turn my thoughts into lines

making ink from their ashes helps

to slurry the days

but it would be so nice lay

the linen words down with no

floral words pulling at the lattice

see!

there is another one

not very ostentatious 

but it catches on my split nails

that need the emery words


how does one weave the fine words

the virgin spider’s thread in the moonlight

how does one tie the stars down 

with a net so feebly construed 


perhaps 

when i have burned all the clever words

buried all the long words

all the overused words

the trite 

i might

see


not those ever so clever rhymes either


but for the moment

the knots on the rosary of language

i have to squeeze as small as i may

and spin the web around me so fast 

that only the light words may escape


and although you may only see

the blob of this poem

look 

if you will

  please 

between the coarse threads

at one tear squeezed through a gap

that before it mixes with the ashed words

catches that star

inverts the moon


write that

from the tomb of the archeologist

one long exhalation

from the buried treasure

of all the golden words


a sigh emerges

Arthur reads TS Eliot

 Arthur reads TS Eliot


and a voice that was not there

arrives packed up in those words

and released upon the night flies

around and around the tongues of sound

the feelings that abound in you and me

for look and listen for the reader 

has set the poet free

now does he not sound 

just like you and me

Monday 18 October 2021

reading r s thomas

 reading r s thomas 


the eternal search

other words for other things

wish coin in the fountain

his mind turning inward

from down in that well

the bucket brought up silver

but when the sun went in

down the bucket went again

perhaps what darkness offers

is the eternal state

Saturday 16 October 2021

counting down

 counting down


let us paint and write 

the minutes to the end

not for us to pretend 

that it might not be

count them down 

now with me

and see that

never mind how much

i love and think of you 

for  for  me

the minutes to the end

have moved that much closer

now my friend

count them down now with me

never pretend it is not the end 

this we have to comprehend 

that finally it is finally this 

and with all of this 

and with all our mind

contend

Wednesday 13 October 2021

sure?

 sure?


there are no dead

there never has been

they never have been

the living imagine them that   were

we cannot even say ‘they’ no longer exist 

because they have all been recycled  yeth?

death an hysterical anagram of life

the living imagine death as being  something

the living imagine death as being  somewhere

how they imagine and wish it were  but

truth is the only thing that has passed

away with you now               tomorrow 

wasn’t it yesterday we said tomorrow 

and here we are and they are not

for them tomorrow never arrived

the dead are no longer here

or there or anywhere

now                   where was i ?


Tuesday 12 October 2021

upper bank station

 upper bank station


what is it about this station

trains run through  but not one passenger alights

in fact no passenger trains run on this track now

only saddle-tank goods trains trucking through

  stare at it long and hard

see where the platform ends drop away 

cross the boarded walk to the other side 

look down to the midland (docks) or up to the junction 

to morriston and the valleys or the swansea vale works

see the level-crossing keeper’s stone cabin

with a coal fire and a hearthed kettle singing

  nothing happens here anymore

  nothing happens here anymore  look at

the children dropping chippings down the chimneys

of the trains that engulf them in steam on the 

naughty boy bridge galvanised over the line

their shoes scuffed reaching from the triangles

wrought below the top handrail of seeing

  nothing happens here anymore

look  oh god look at the sparrows stuck

spread eagled dead in the sun-melted tar 

under the dislocated grindstone askew

abandoned and as dead as this station

  nothing happens here anymore

the old villagers tell of sunday school outings

open carriages full of excited excursions

to the green fields above the smoke 

those days  never to be seen again 

for those days are gone 

  nothing happens here anymore 

than the thoughts of what was upper bank 

if it ever was anything at all

something must have happened for us to say

  nothing happens here anymore


do you know there is a tunnel right under the station


Thursday 7 October 2021

frog spawn

 frog spawn


up to mattie’s gutter come on mun

run past the pub and the chapel run

past john shop’s chicken run run

fast past the pointed wooden pen

oozing the tar called bitumen 

full pelt down the grass to clay

the stream sped over where the

caddis fly lay and on up

the dampness flowing from the well

three red bricks high and square

to look if there is any frog spawn where

on this febuary morn of a boy borne wild 

upon the heels of a growing knowing child

oh yes knowing that the white grasses

blowing under spring’s bluest the sky 

and why oh why is the spawn so late

scare raising the crows of walk back’s fate 

all is windward on these wayward days

and days and days of visiting the well 

again and again until one day yell

it’s there! it’s there! and

handed home to my tank in my shed

where the stickleback swims alone

i said here is the spawn that will bend 

and grow and do you know 

in a few months time if we feed 

and throw in a rock or two

the legged little ones will know

that it is time to go and i will wait

all of winter’s waiting wait

until spring is once more at the garden gate 

and wings on heels we’ll run and run

to find the frogspawn under a low spring sun

its black bright eyes are blinking blinking

and thinking how the warmth returns

to a new year long in its running wild 

of that well borne wistful february child