Sunday, 20 May 2018

isn’t it

yesterday 
is just behind the ridge behind you
tomorrow 
is just in front of the ridge in front of you
spin around
but
you’ll never catch sight of them
you know the past 
you guess the future 
but you’ll never see them
today is 
well
it just is
isn’t it

tell me tomorrow when today is past 

and if it did in gentle’s lightening hours

and if it did in gentle’s lightening hours,
  chance upon the dewed bird’s early worm,
and daisying with the dawn-eyed flowers,
  another summer’s day confirm.

and then they play the old songs, the summer list,
  from the days when we met our chance,
and my tears, thin as upon this morning mist,
  fall sweetly now upon your enquiring glance.

and all our knowing, twirls around that look,
  that held-breath upon the lake of time;
and love that started as a brook,
 now combines the tributaries of you are mine.

and in the darkling down slow hours
  that bat across the flitting moon,
and at these bookend days of ours,
  that came all but too soon,
we’ll fade together, day to night, 
  so hold my hand as i hold yours,
and we’ll kiss goodnight to night.

Saturday, 19 May 2018

on the edge of sleep

there’s a park
between sleep and hark
where the serpent guile 
is upon the surf of dreams 
and sometimes dark
and sometimes light
and sometimes day
and sometimes night 
roundabout the park
empty swings play
and demand we cling on tight
ere we dive in
and dream the while away 

sound the alarm

sound the alarm

the colour of sand
he wanted it the colour of sand
over and over
he said he wanted it the colour of sand
as he walked past with his dog
but you have to eat i said
i don’t know why i thought that 
but i kept on telling him
over and over
you have to eat
from 6 am until 7 am
or the colour will not be real
but he was not listening 
it was as if he wasn’t there


Friday, 18 May 2018

dread

we crept into the graveyard 
through the twisted rusty fence 
through the rustling russet bushes
to see the blackbird on her nest
but she was dead 
dead and sitting there
dead upon her nest
turning the dread ran out with us
through the twisted rusty fence


god i hate everyone

god i hate everyone

the ones who drop litter,
leave it there, let’s drown in it,
  i say!
the ones who park on the pavement
in their hierarchical metal boxes,
coded, badged, and booted.
warrior, animal, and vegetable too.
the sod you generation,
the era of the sod you, sod you,
sod you;
   sniff.

the noisy ones, and the daft ones,
and the ones around the back;
in their nowheres, with
their barbecues, 
barbarising their mistakes.

the fag parents of the fag brains,
in their fag brain obese-mobiles.
  i sodding hate ‘em all.

the blue-rinsers oozing down the scent
of the perfumed hoi polloi, 
their powder layered thick as thieves
of time when time’s run out.

and the squeaky, speaky girls, with their
alabaster faces plastered brown;
oh do make up your bloody mind,
all i see are painted clowns;
but do you think
you looking good? or are
you good for looking at?
  oh for god’s sake!
all that’s fashion is out of fashion,
they are fashioned to be plebeians;
imbecile and infantile.

your mundane conversations, 
the same on tuesday, wednesday,
all week through;
not one fundamental question
follows your how do you do you do
  what?

the promenading doggy dumpers,
with their little bags of doggy poo,
nattering about their doggy dos,
and did they do, and do they do?
  ah sod you, sod you,
    sod you all.
       i hate you all.
      
every single one of you.



Tuesday, 15 May 2018

remember?

remember?

they are gone now
and i cannot remember them.
how they fitted together so well,
and how i spoke through them.
i never said goodbye, or tartar. 
each extraction was brutal,
a last love-bite and they were gone.

and my curly hair, in sepia;
i can no longer feel the coiled springs,
or the henna of the sunlight.
now in the twilight of my life
i cannot remember them.

every toe nail and finger nail that
i had grown up with and without,
where are they now?
composted where i point; over there.
gone their sublime scratching of the itch
of a flaky skin. i cannot remember.

that exfoliating epithelial rejuvenation,
the snow falling from the buds.
scratched note fading from the hands of time.
i cannot tell if the wardrobe dust is mine,
or yours. so how can i remember.

the red blood cells and their ruddy recycling.
the zillions of gametes that will never meet.
the bone swimming in a mineral sea.
the tears that have flowed.
with the peristalsis to the drain,
its microbiome in full reign.
all gone from my memory.

as the moisture on my breath
condescends to fade,
so do my memories sublimate,
until nothing of substance can be left.
so who am i now?
what is left me now?
an everlasting brush that had
numerous new handles and heads?
now upon the pyre of goodbye. 

however much you drink of the past,
you will piss it away in time.
regard the reflection of your mind,
always one step out-of-step
with the neural ion flux,
that the eons have prescribed.

chip away at the temporal pole and
the tent of thought will collapse upon you;
as your fly-sheet soul in fleeing flies
refusing the evening’s last goodbyes.

i do not recognise the memories,

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