Wednesday 31 July 2024

the absurdity of suburbia

 the absurdity of suburbia


the man with the plastic bag stands patiently

his dog is having a shit on the council’s grass verge

pristine

soon he will pick up the shit while it is still warm

and squish it into the appointed bin 

anointed with the frankincense of putrefaction 

jesus christine 

both the man and his dog are satisfied

a few lampposts to pee on and to count the way home

either side of their lead suburbia is quiescent 




ruined he was

 ruined he was


i see the ruined hands of the men

the men who built and the men who toiled

and rested a hand on the walls at furnace side

see the lime mortar there

it is their dried tears

see the black slag there

it is their bruised lives

their wrinkles were the banknotes counted

by the iron masters there


that is what i see and what my dad told me

a repairer of soles

 a repairer of soles


my late father had a last

sprigs between his lips

a metal moon on the heel


the shoes are still here

if only in my memory

of him coming home from work

Tuesday 30 July 2024

silence ~ not a breath

 silence ~ not a breath


silence

not a breath

but the mumble of a bumble bee

to stir the lobelia that stirs me


the sun upon my shoulder

is hot this heady morn

the cat is asleep on the red cushion

she has been glorious since dawn


i’m learning to relax

it has been a long time you see 

the sun is relaxing the cat

and she is teaching me


then a wood pigeon clatters through 

disturbing us both

the sun goes slowly

behind an errant cloud


again silence

talks to me in poetry 

in words i do not understand 



a cloak of invincibility

 a cloak of invincibility 


he took this his camouflage 

from the very stones there

walked away in it 

and left a hole of soul

took the voices off the stone tapes

from the history of people’s times

there no more in the shapes

transplanted to the rockery of souls

colour blindness stared dead


as the day turned

 as the day turned


weighing them down

the errant shadows

one by one

each under its own pebble


all day they turned

begging the sun to stop to help

but it went on its merry way


and then

at last

as the shadows lengthened

their longing escaped


they were gone


the pebbles roared 

at the sea’s grief

for the serpent moon

was only a shadow 

of what could have been

text me a poem now

 text me a poem now


give me fast words

good words

true and real words

make me cry

but make it quick

It’s a funny old world


ping

Monday 29 July 2024

fhe last echo

 the last echo 


trading poems with a poet about death

is like waiting for an echo not to return to the subject

and then


and then i will be king 

of the caste


your turn


of phrase

Horizon

horizon


the earth hung from the sky

floated on the waters beneath

the horizon was a compromise 

a truce if you like

not an end to the war 

between life and death 


we sail that horizon in the boat named expectation

no anchor

no less

and 

no more

 

Find Friends

 Find Friends


on the day of my birth

‘Find Friends’ puts me somewhere in the same circle

as my mum


before that 

the circle of probability gets smaller and smaller 

as my dad approaches


before that


in all probability

a parallel universe bubbled

and a versary not

 and a versary not


i wasn’t born on this day in 1949

it was on another day

in another month

of the same year


but what the hell


time is a blur these days

but i know where my mother was 

on that day for i cried and cried

and she cuddled me asleep

et cetera

 et cetera 



what if you 

are a dreamer 

in a dreamer’s dream

dreaming of a dreamer

dreaming of a dreamer 


et cetera


who would wake up first

is life a cascade of dreamers dreaming dreams


et cetera


wake up son

it’s time for school


the alarm clock repeats 


et cetera


et cetera


et cetera

Sunday 28 July 2024

strange this trepidation

 strange this trepidation


it’s not going to

to rain like it did

on your child plans

so long ago

it still refuses to reset

when you plan a sunny day

and all along the way

you remember that day

when it broke down

and was rained off

and your plans were reigned in

it is still in harness the stallion worry

stamping upon the grounds of your ire

too late now to hope

for trepidation to be put out to graze

and to no longer graze the knees of your prayers

too late now

and yet the sun always shine through

doesn’t it

strange isn’t it